Into the Silence

Hello out there! Can anybody hear me? Because inside I'm screaming loud and clear, and there are a million echoing thoughts mixed with memories, dreams, and fantasies all strung together by the most random and absurd logic. But all of those things are merely clouds passing in the natural clarity of the mind. Throughout my ten days of (semi) silence there were glimpses of clear sky, a few avalanches of Love, several tidal waves of the whole world suffering, and the surest feeling of rightness in my entire being.
Initially I was hesitant to close myself off to the adventures of India to partake in a retreat, but I truly could not have done anything more rewarding with ten days of my life. A group of 30 diverse humans from all over the planet sat together for many hours per day and had no need to say anything. It was so refreshing not to "have" to talk. It was semi silent because we had an hour of group discussion each day to hash out our ideas and reflections on the days lectures. Each day we had about 4 hours of Tibetan Buddhist philosophy lectures intermingled with several hours of meditation time to put it all into practice. The last two days were 5 hours of meditation and no lectures.
I lived in a cave-room that was the sweetest sanctuary to sleep through the almost nightly rain and thunderstorms. With all of potential distraction taken away (no cell phone, ipod, books, cross word puzzles) being left with the wild animal of my own mind became something fascinating and delightfully natural. After we spent one whole day on "the nature of reality" my dreams began to reflect the fact that nothing is as we see it to be. I was using a tea cup as a cell phone, and hearing all sounds as one. Sound and silence are simultaneous.
To put this experience into a few words one gift that I received is that: in pondering what it would feel like if I had only a few weeks to live (some of the meditations were a bit morose) I know with all of my heart that I have been given and have shared so much love in my life, but it became crystal clear that I can love so much more. So you'll hold me to that right guys?
What is it all about in the end after all?